dear blog...,
I'm having my prelims this week....haiz..think i going to get the class bottom le...things i study all never come out...sian..haiz.....but from this experience....i learn that from now i had to work harder then before in order to get good results....haiz....die le lor this time...lata the MTPS(meet the parent session) die liao lor....confirm my father will say mi de..haiz....finsihing soon liao....next Tuesday last paper then normal school day le...so tired lor....haiz....
also don't know why sia...maybe is cos' of late night sleeping or got stress or what de....kept getting dizzy spells in the morning when wake up and in the afternoon the worst...vigorous actions such as turn head fast.. shout..and etc. can made mi feel more giddy.....haiz...don't know why lor....haiz..so chaim....then sleep to rest awhile later wake up will headache again then now also a bit giddy....haiz....my mother say like this if got fever must tell her..cos' might be the symptoms of the dengue fever....haiz..must rest well lor...hope i don't' get that....

dear blog...,

i got this cute clock few days ago but now then put it up very cute...it's a clock given by my relative de...small small de...then like one of the pool's ball...this clock got 2 colours yellow and black...so i took yellow...nice but not yet use....keep it till my another digi. clock is completely spoilt..=P

dear blog...,
i was away from s'pore to Malaysia for 4 days...at there i had a lot of fun...took alot of picz...i think this time...this post would be the long of all ba think so haha.....my family and i left for Malaysia at 1plus due to some things..the car wasn't moving fast and moved slow so reached there at about 7-8 plus le....then had a welcoming home-cooked buffet at my ah-yi's house...then reached my ah-ma's house at around late 11 le....and went to bed at 12...
2nd day was so so....i sat there look scenery then take picz...quite boring la....then went out to had breakfast with my parents..then went to have a hair cut lor...now my hair no straight le but then like go back liao so scare i don't like my previous hair lea...this day i also very unhappy...one of my idiotic cousin hate lor...his my god-brother..very small nia...that day i was just playing the piano ma..nothing to do...and that idiotic guy just open the door and shouted : " YOU VERY NOISY"...siao right...after shouting he just ran away...so furious that i slam the door..WTH did i do lor lame right..that idiot!!! more angry is that he went crying to the room when his mother ask him and shouted loud that everything is all my fault..i slammed the door i shouted at him....BULLSHIT!!! i didn't even shout at him just slam the door nia lor....that idiot went crying loud and putting all the blame on me lor....so angry lor ....then my parents ask me why this why that....i just say : go ask your god son la...and they went out....after that i go bath....after bath i saw my auntie(that idiotic cousin's mother) sitting in the kitchen that idiotic guy also there....i just look straight pretending that i didn't saw him...when walked back i saw his mother looking at me from her mug while drinking when i turned to look at her she changed the direction of her eyes to looking at her son...so lame lor think i didn't saw it....even after the whole matter her son never apologise to me....
on the 3rd day....i went to shopping with my cousins(female) and my family....remembering that time when i went to Malaysia on the march holidays...we also got go shopping but are only allow to go to the mahkota shopping centre and not allow to go over to the opposite shopping centre cos' the items very exp.....haha...and my whole family went over there to shop. must agree the items are exp.but then i bought a shirt from there @ D&D the shirt cost RM$36.90 but got 10% discount so cost Rm$33.20 =S$16.60....then got gifts from my daddy and my ah-yi also my cousin....at there they treat me very well!! so good...!!

on the last day also the day when i go back to s'pore...i went to visit a garden with fruits and a pig sty also my brother went to visit the durian farm own by my ah-ma....now is all the picz le...yea....got pictures liao haha..so lame of mi wahahah!!! also i'm all right with my parents le...no worries friends =)

Dear blog..,
i'm feeling so restless almost everyday...don't really feel like doing anything...during yesterday's maths bridging...i like no mood to learn and can't concentrate....something always on my mind always on that thing...and i had wrongly accused one..felt so guilty......i can't even bring myself to do anything well now...felt so hurt...and also been forced along to go malaysia....actually i don't think they really do spare a thought for me.....just like in a movie some years ago...title :"I not Stupid"...just like the scene where the parents would always say....what i do is for your own good....if parents spare a thought for their children and not force them to do the things they don't like....it would have made a family with less quarrels and fights....and into a more perfect family........

dear blog...,

i hate my family!! i hate my parents!!! they never cares nor try to understands me....ex-specially my father...always side my mother leaving me to be the bad one....and my mother always like to ER REN XIAN GAO ZHUANG!!! i hate them....my mother hit me up in front of my friend yesterday.....making me embarrass...and then in front of her friends...always want me and my brother to act good not to throw her face hell of what she thinks she is....beat me up just because my music was too loud and i was about to turn softer....she came in again..hitting me at my head.....of cos' i will be angry unless I'm not a human....i wasn't wrong is was the computer lagging...my fault meh....computer is not a human that can be easily manipulated....just because i talk to her by this sentence she hit me and want to slap my face and never see that my friend was still sitting inside my room...after that i lost my temper and want to vent it out..i throw my hair band hard down with my hand on the scanner....and then THAT HELL B**** came in with a cane(not those thin ones but those that use to scratch backs) she try to hit mi...i block it with my wrist and with two hit my wrist was already wound and my wrist was trembling hard that i couldn't control it and the trembling wasn't control by me....she was that did nothing scold some more and went out....then at night when my father came home...she wait till my father went to the kitchen to have i dinner...she went in to complained to him...DAMN F***....when i went in to the kitchen i did nothing just sat at there watch TV my father said...i know what u have done today you better go reflect on what you have done....RUBBISH !!! BULLSHIT!!!! i hated them some much....then cried alot yesterday making my eyes so swollen that my eyes turned small....

this morning when she reach home....she scream outside my room after that came in and scream at me to wake up...BULLSHIT I DID NOTHING WRONG AGAIN....SCREAM AND SHOUT AT ME FOR WHAT....HELL MAN!!!

then whole morning talk and talk always make a big round to "shoot" the words back to me....damn hell....then my father call this morning from work to ask me why should i make all this stupid nonsense....then ask me why i don't want to go to my aunt's house....why this why that....hate him so much..then he ask then going to grandma house you also don't to go lah....? i talk back that I'm not going anywhere...he angry say when he come home want to talk to me..who cares about all these...it was their fault for making me to this mood now.... i hate them...and I'm not going to do anything..I'll just do the things i like now....they want to fight with me....see who can't tolerate first.....I'm not afraid......and my wrist is hurting so much....think temp. can't take heavy things or turning it up or down hard.....

dear blog....,
i was so blur and gong and careless today....i actually thought that i lost my Ipod Shuffle...!!! I was taking it out when reaching the bus stop and halfway i found that my Ipod was missing!!!! i thought for a while but remembered that i got bring it out today and after listen got put inside my bag.....with me that time was ZiJun,Kim,LiQi,Suzana,Rowena...they ask me to find properly... i say find liao...they then help me find through the bag....can't find...i was so scared cos' that's important to me! then they thought of alot of solutions to help me solve...then they came up with that idea of that if can't find it then they share money to help me buy one...cos' that Ipod was too important but then i don't know what to do that time...then after that they say maybe lost in the bus...i more nervous then they say go check first then see how....i say oki....then when a bus arrive....Kim and i took that bus home....on the bus i complained to Kim on that i was scare then she ask me to take everything out to find properly....and then...she went through the small pocket that my Ipod was last seen....she check around it....she then say : GOT A HOLE LA!!!..... then i find more properly and then FOUND IT!!!! cos' of that hole the Ipod drop deep in to the between of the bag then i slowly try to take it out...heng i found it... all thank must thank to Kim...all is her gong lao if not go find confirm can't find back le....then think have to go buy it....but lucky....i ask Kim why she would think of that..? she say suddenly got that idea.....and she always also like that....but any way I WANT TO THANK YOU GUYZ SO MUCH....!!! THANKS FOR YOURS' HELP AND SUPPORT!!! so lucky.....that week i also was quite unlucky....i lost my comb at the bus....then went all the way to JP to buy mad izzt it?!....haha....but if i really lost it...it would be scarily cos' from 50 cent jump to 100 plus dollars lea........any way i want to thank them all....also Ronald though he say one sentence made me very bu shuang.....

then today got chemistry all day......i was so sian..and also like no mood to listen or do the work don't know why....then between the lesson i was rushing the social studies corrections today must hand-in lor.....round 5 or 10 mins after the lesson i then manage to finish it lor.....anyway today Ms Wong teach i is half understand after blur lor....very confused and chim....don't know why sia...i'm alright at chem de...maybe i used to Mrs Kweh's teaching liao ba....anyway...hope i can do well in it JIA YOU !!!

sian....now i got another new nickname due to sometimes i like to locked myself in my world..ZI BI....my friends call mi emo. girl.... emo. girl = emotional girl.....sianzzzzz...

Dear blog...,
today me and my classmates celebrated xinyi's birthday on advance as tomorrow is her birthday..but we celebrated it today....she was totally surprised by this haha...then i borrowed her handphone to play a game call Agent V is quite a nice and fun game to me cos' i'm not sure about others....but when i played the game....some friends thought i was taking picture of them..cos' that game need you to move the handphone around..it is fun....but then had to say sorry to XinYi...i forget to bring along my camera to school today wor..so paiseh...sorry wor...but i will remember to bring it next year or next time when we go out together...take picz together....5 years...like none of any year did we both took any pictures together right....

today got maths and english brigding or the most widely known as REMEDIAL....maths..we had to go through some worksheet and also the textbook exercise...i was weak liao cos' i quite alot question don't know haiz....but then i will work hard de...then in english today....we do a situational writing on proposal writing...well it's quite hard to write lor...then still got a "challenge" haha...my english teacher say..who hand in the last will bring the whole stack of the work to him...then everyone was.."WAH!!! QUICK QUICK FINISH QUICK" all in that mood....rush and rush....lucky i'm not the last one to finish but my friend complained that i'm writing too slow...well i'm oing to speed up in my writng and train it up so it won't be messy to look at and i'm able to write fast and wordings are visble..haha....stooping here...jamming time!!